memories are to be kept to self alone..

life.

2009-01-31T16:17:00.003+08:00

itz been long since ive updated.
busy is such a werd fer me.
and werk is still fun fer me still.
loving it.

days passed.
months over.
2008 never ever comes back.
things happened fer a reason.
and it happens fer a reason.

ached happened when someone close changes.
to think i aint noe everything,think wisely.
u think u can escape by saying dat sentence,think again.
if u think i never noe ure talking about me in here, think again.
if u wanna get fucked up by me,fucked urself up first.
to think ure puurfect,think again.
to think watever u do is puurfect,think again.
people aint ur madness dogs who listen to their owner.
ehk..
binatang pon ader perasaan.
to think u have whatever it takes,fucked you!
think again!!
once ure win,ure gonna LOSE ferever.
think dat.
and get dat in ur mind.
i can give you shit,if u wants me to.
jz never make de bond lose,if ds thing happen.
if u think im talking about you,think again.
cz i aint you who never thinks.

pics of prize presentation.

2008-11-16T12:59:00.004+08:00

lil'bro prize presentation.

2008-11-16T12:50:00.002+08:00

went to lil' bro's prize presentation..
at first i thot,i was de only one going..
den dapat tahu,
parents are coming down too..
punyerlah sort..
ader la aku amek leave cz thot dat dey're not coming down..
but den,cool!!
saw de favourite teachers.

mr mohd!!
woohoo...
primary school crush.
mrepek okay.
hahahahah...
dat was few years back..
which was like 8 years back?
hahahah...

congrats on lil'bro fer being de 1st in class..
uve proved dat not deir races can take dat position..
coz i saw those in de position are all de same races..
but uve proven us wrong..
congrats2..
so claim ur prize from parents and not me..
hahahah...
cz ive gave u liow..

i'll update de pics aite..
=))

9th november.

2008-11-16T12:43:00.002+08:00

boo..
im back fer good of coz..

days had past..
great things happened..
bad things terselit2 somewhere thou..

went to aisyah's wedding..
yerp2..
its her!!
my primary school ghurlfren..
itz been a serious long time since i saw her..
i reached dere few seconds late when she entered de car..
oh man..
thanks faliq fer being late.
lembabz..
but lucky me kak lina was dere..

and went off to ilah's crib to lepak jap..
hahahha...
itz been few months kan i never come...
i noe...
hehehhe...

den after dat,
went back to homey,changed and out again..
jalan2 carik pasal..
hehehe..

=))

POP - Passing out Parade.

2008-10-26T11:53:00.002+08:00

aww..
saw him..
marching pass selenge-ly..
hehhe..

told eu dat i'll be coming over..
but eu never believe..
den now..
padan muke hang terpranjat kodok depan masyarakat..
hehhe..
at last..
i saw someone in police uniform ehk..
smart mamat nmpak??
and meng choon..
congrats on de winning of i donno what award..
saw eu wif ur group of frens snapping pictures..
and i guess ure bz dat y i nvr approached eu fer a pic wif mister izhar lor..
congrats congrats..

POP!!

dnd cum high school musical 3.

2008-10-26T11:32:00.002+08:00

im back..
fer good..
i hope..

life's been great.
i think.
raya?
oklah..
not bad..
werk?
dont ever mention.
thank you.

had dinner and dance.
fun.
great.
de people.
de kecoh-ness.
de hot dazzling doctors especially my favourite ones,Dr Lim Ing Ruen,wearing as Cinderella.
and de charming prince.

reached home about almost 4am.
cz we went fer High School Musical 3: Senior Year after dat.
cool!!
awesome!!
sad..
seriously..
tears..
and joy-ness in deir frenship..
cool huh..
full house hor yesterday midnight movie..
and ya..
afterall..
everything went well..

and guess what??
i never knew dat tomorrow is a holiday ehk..
happy deepavali to all..
and to Jai Rajathi in far,far away New Zealand..
=))

iftar wif cuzzies.

2008-09-21T22:27:00.002+08:00

went breaking fast wif cuzzies yesterday.
luckily i finishes work early.
dey have people to take over..
and ya...
released us earlier.
cool.

but i thot im gonna reached home early,
and have good rest.
but nah...
guess not.
reached home..
went to iron de clothes.
called faliq up.
resting fer few minutes only,
den kak nana called up.
and rest another few minutes den have to washed self up and changed.
cz be miting kak runni and abd ayie in senja.

went out abt 4.30pm.
thot i will be reaching in time.
but nah..
reached about 5.40pm?
and ended up miting at de wrong carpark.
how i noe mah wheres de carpark.

upon reaching arab street,
we went to search fer carpark lot.
surprised.
surprised.
no lot.
many people.
went fer round about.
until when we jz park at de end of de corner.

sabar menanti was de place.
everyone were dere.
15 in total.
while having our yummylicious food,
we realised dat dere was a long table behind...
few minutes later...
de mat2 motor came..

and geez...
i saw him!!
my back facing his back.
and seriously it was him!!
ergh...
and and how did i see him dere seh..
frens recognised.
and oh gosh.
i was praying hard not to face to face with him.
seriously.

done wif our food,
proceeding to Minds Place in bugis.
outside de makan place,
and dere i saw him.
argh!
dier nmpak aku la plak.
kawan2 dier lagik nmpak aku.
aper nie..
tk payah nk tengok aku mcm gitu skali aper.
i aint hus ghurlfren.
itz o nly him yg prasaan nah aku matair dier.
bukan salah aku aper.
tkyah uh krg nk tgk aku mcm gitu aper.

reached bugis area.
place was fun.
but to me,
suddenly i spoilt everything.
cz my coughing wasnt healed yet.
i was breathless again outside de cafe.
thanks faliq fer being dere.
but yet again,
i spoilt it.

but de people were fun.
cuzzies were fun.
laughing in de game.
i'll update u de videos and pics.

went geylang after dat actually.
whee...
alot of people again.
and dere,
saw daniel.
dier lagik.
lucky me he never noticed.
and fer sure,i'll be cacing kepanasan again like what i felt at de makan place.

and yerpz2..
we went home about 1+...
and how i wished can go back at later time again...
hahah!!
signing off.
=))

Warna Ramadan.

2008-09-21T21:55:00.004+08:00

k go!

today was at home de whole day.

ransacked de room.

pulling down de curtains.

throwing away all notes and rubbish notes from de cupboard.

and was laughing alone in de room,reading de old secondary school diary.

hahah!!

diary okay.

okay2..

was kind of rushing2 and relaxing cleaning up de room.

coz i was wondering what will happen in few hours time.

cz ghurlfren was asking me to watch Warna Ramadan.

faliq was jz guessing maybe shes on de show.

and i was like.."err.. aah ehk.. sure not.. cz she will usually tell me abt it.."

and taa-daa!!

u surprised me ghurlfren!!

i was touched to hear it.

we did advised u earlier but itz up to u to decide.

and what a relief..

uve made it.

made up de choice of searching fer him..

sure do u have our support.

chey2...

kawan ku masok tv seh..

i thot u'll be de backup2 artis seh..

and guess what..

i on de channel,and hold on to de remote b4 anyone in de house snatched it away from me.

heheh!!

weekends.

2008-09-14T14:00:00.002+08:00

went out yesterday to geylang.
wif de ite ladies.
misses much.
gf was working hard yesterday de whole day.
sophie cudnt make it den.
wishing it was a complete ones.

saw relatives yesterday.
saw abg awie,kak shasha and de lil muchkin.
den saw nyai lela wif errr.. sorry i donno ur name.
hes my uncle actually.
next!
den saw iqah wif boyfiee.
tulah..
hungry sangat meh till never see me?

so ya..
de coughing is making me worst.
and now..
zizie is sick.
due to me ehk?
sorry scandal.
you take care okay?
take care of urself like how you take care of ur scandal here.
hahah!!
u said ure going india..
when ehk?

im nt sure how im going work tomorrow.
wif my coughing getting bad to worst.
suspected of having asthma.
due to my allergy to one of ds medication lah.
stoopid.
thanks to my own lovely doctor fer advising me and telling me dat i was allergy to it.
and thanks to my mat sempot fer laughing at me.
mat sempot = asthmatic guy = muhammad izhar bin abu bakar.
k go!

reached home,
dad told me dat dey bought my mattress olreadi..
and also some furnitures..
oh no!
some makeover in de house wifout me knowing anything?
this is bad.
but im looking ferwerd fer it.

cuzzie nina called up.
fer cuzzins outing this coming saturday.
fer sure,insyallah,i'll come down.
but im werking till 5 on dat day.
as deres an event going on dat day.
and fer ur info,
im nt wif dat blackie..
whom i guess my cuzzies thot im wif.
but actually im not.
so ya..
im nt wif dat blackie.
next!

so ya..
today will be hectic day fer me.
cleaning up de house.
staying strong wif my coughing still.
k go!
see ya.

weekdays.

2008-09-12T22:01:00.003+08:00

yippie yay yay!!
im so in love wif my weekdays.

met zizie!!
after werk on wednesday..
i miss you matair/scandal.
after a loooooong time since i saw you!!
miss you many2 okay.
and we went fer break fast at pizza hut.
thanks to you fer being MIA.
and had to treat me okay?
heheh...
bt u noe i noe what happen on dat day rite?
me nt feeling well was really made de day down.
but thanks fer sending me back home wif cab.
sayang kamu many2 okay matair/scandal.
hehehhe!!

den..
den next day...
met iskandar!!
fer break fast after werk and after his project.
thanks fer de company again.
after 2 weeks i guess fer not meeting after ur mum left us.
cheer up bro!
=))

and today..
met honey bitchy faliq..
ahahha!!
sianz.
wasnt feeling well.
coughing like hell.
only dey noe how i looked like...
and how i sounds like..
cant stand it longer when i decided to go back home after visiting de doctor..
regretted fer not going under health fer life...
doctor in yishun poly was hell boring la kan..
never understand wht de patient wants...
and tell u something...
he talked to himself la kan...
i mean de doctor...
very de slenge hor..
and thanks faliq fer de company to de polyclinic from my werk place..
heeehhe...
and meeting ur kakak and abang and de 2 lil munchkins to ang mo kio..
cute lil ones..

and den..
gt a call from aimilia..
hey babe!
long time never heard from you..
i jz woke up from sleep la dey..
dats y i soo de blur2..
hehehhe...
meet up tomorrow wif de rest of de ghurls?
confirm olreadi or nt?
hehehhe!!

so now..
watching video..
beauty and de beast okay!!
hehehhe...
den will be sleeping and resting after medication.
=))

i miss her so.

2008-08-31T12:40:00.004+08:00

i noe itz hard fer you to accept it.

and itz really hard fer me to accept it too.

receiving a message from you to think otherwise was on de mind.

but it was de other way round.

received a message saying about de lost of your mom really aches me.

not telling me dat she got warded really make me hate you much.

u noe i love her like how i love my mother.

and i noe you werent being urself in dat week.

and i fergive you dat.

but i just cant fergive myself fer not seeing her fer de last.

and not asking her fer fergiveness if i ever did in de past.

i jz fergive self yet.

and i miss her like i miss my mother.

and i noe you miss her more.

being de pillar of de family,

you have many commitments.

take care of lil sis and dad alright.

and insyallah i'll come over and see de three of you.

cried yesterday de whole day.

even after i received de message till i reached home and before i went to bed and after i woke up from sleep.

i never knew it.

maybe i regretted of not visiting her earlier.

and i miss her so.

missing her company.

missing her food.

missing her laughters.

really aches me.

i miss her so.

hari raya this year wont be de same wifout her by de side.

wifout her inviting us wif her cooking.

her nice delicious yummylicious cooking.

oh.

i miss her so.

i noe she isnt my own mother.

but noeing her fer 4 years really make me noe her.

now i noe how much a person misses someone precious.

and ya..

i noe you were shocked to see me doing dat yesterday.

before she was brought out.

coz i regard her as my own mother.

love her like my own mother.

and i seriously miss her so.

and you do take care of urself ya.

fasting month is de start of tomorrow.

take care of lil sis and dad alright.

ask her to study hard and make de family proud.

and ask ur dad to take care of himself too.

i'll come over after work someday okay.

you noe i love all of you like how i used to do.

you noe i love all of you like my own family and siblings.

=))

happy legal 21st blood!!

2008-08-18T14:24:00.003+08:00

HAPPY LEGAL 21ST BLOOD!!

benci kau many2..

wheehoo..

and im sooo gonna mit dem sooon!!

08.08.08

2008-08-09T13:11:00.002+08:00

supposedly to meet naqib yesterday..
but plan cancelled.
he went out wif family fer makan2..

so..
went back home from work..
and feeling bored hor okay...

udynn was still in tekong..
not yet book out..
hafiz is having full rest fer national day stand by..
take care mister.
shahrill?
dead by den..
and..
out of no people im thinking about..
faliq!!
came to de rescue..
ahhahah..

met him last week fer our prom night..
ehk2..
boring jugak seh..
luckily he came by and rescued my boring day..
so..
we went town..
instead of me going shopping..
oit..
when my turn?
he shopped fer himself..
2 shirts..
lovely indeed..
so..
while on de way dere..
someone called me up..
....
....
...
...
..
..
.
.
charmaine!!
my indon maid.
hehehe..
yerp2..
i'll asked him fer dat 23rd..
as you noe..
he's full of his nonsence..
right izhar?
heheh..

and ya..
shopped till drop..
cz i was also looking fer niece bdae present..
what do you buy fer a lil donut whom is 1 years old?
hehheh..
but i found one..
soon it'll be yours lil niece..

and taa-daa!!
reached home at 12+..
mummy msged me saying dat deres fightings under my blk..
so..
faliq sent me back home till de lift and i went up wif 2 unknown young cute heroes..
but hey..
i guess dey're thinking dat faliq is my boyfriend..
dammit.

but den..
im looking ferwerd fer 23rd august..
izhar...
dey excluding me miss you..
so you better come down you mister potato nut head..
=))

days at work.

2008-08-09T11:00:00.003+08:00

boohoo!
im back.
hehhe..
been a long time since im updating de blog huh..

days have been hectic.
busy.
tiring.
but loving it.

dese days been jz spending time at work..
laughing out loud.
i love de werking people.
and..
my dinner and dance is confirmed.
happy2 i am.
themes fer it wil be......
fairytale!!
wish to be a cinderella larh...
heheheeheh...
but..
de tickets arent paying by me..
my lovable consultants are paying fer it..
sayang dem alots okie.

and yet again..
since i started werking dere...
ive been eating many2 and alots larh..
i received alot of chocolates from my consultants on my nurses's day..
and one of de doctor jz gt back from Bandung..
and guess what he brought fer us??
brownies!!
yippie yum yum..
im loving it..

and..
de patients dere..
from time to time..
more malays den chinese..
more youngs den olds..
more army guys den de usual patients..
army guys jz wanna have MC.
but...
more guys with broken legs seh..
ehehe..
ahhaha..
hot stuffs at work.
hehehee..
=))

bedok corner.

2008-07-29T22:51:00.003+08:00

so..
yerp2..
went out yesterday night after work..
after reaching home..

at about 8+pm,
received call from ex-boyfriend.
to go makan.
hahaha!!
hadi..
it was a conference conversation and yet ure soo blurr..
and ya..
seriously..
i was hungry hor at dat time..
been feeling hungry during werk time too..

so..
met him..
fetched me up.
and off we went simpang bedok.

dere..
we waited fer de rest.
de star karatz hor okay..
and..
came..
hadi and abg syehrul..
and off i went to order mine..
hungry seriously.

and..
came..
din..
and..
came..
dani..

chatted.
talked.
mrepeks okay.
and..
i was somehow kena interogated [ i noe i spell it out wrongly, i guess ] by them.

wei..
i was de only lady..
who came down fer de 2nd time..
and talked!
hahha..
cz fer de first time,
we werent quite noe each other..
and ya..
questions were asked..

if dey asked and i answered dem one by one,never mind..
but somehow..
din asked me a question..
even i gt de chance to answer,abg syehrul asked me another question..
and came hadi wif his interruptions..
and how am i suppose to answer to ur questions mister2?

and ya..
den came jack..
suppose dats only de nick name..
hehhe..

it isnt a fair game hor okay..
i was de only lady dere..
and dere were 6 of you guys..
if only ur ghurlfriends came by too..
probably it will be kecoh..
but it was monday..
and de rest are werking de next day..
unlike me,
was preety hungry so i went out to meet dem fer supper.

so den..
went back about 11+pm..
couldnt meet de rest still..
but one day,
it will be..

and..
abg syehrul and hadi.
thanks ehk..
fer de not-so-de-menjadi helper and advisor fer me..

pay.

2008-07-27T10:31:00.002+08:00

yippie yay yay.
pay day.
pay day.

had it.
done it.
gave it.
but den donnoe what to do wif it anymore.

heheh!!
nanie.
thanks hor fer yesterday company.
and psst..
i think he's way too cute larh.
aww..
my personal hairdresser..
heheh..
cuteness.
hehehe..

okay2..
den went to grab dat top.
and den..
taa-daa!!
i donno whats more to get again.

enrol car?
should be soon kot..
nanie?
md nor?
how?
=))

does it matter?

2008-07-26T02:06:00.002+08:00

haha!
mrepekz.

does age make you any difference?
no rite?
even my parents is also different wif de age matter..
but i wonder..
some people out dere saying dat age is a matter thing..
and some even said..
"sial larh.. budak2 lagik per.. adek2 lagik.."
ergh!
self reflect self la sia.
cakap orang pandai.
but wat about urself?

hows ur boyfriend been going on huh..
please larh.
mrepek sia.
cakap pasal matair orang,matair sndri tak tengok?
jage matair sendiri uh.
and ds drive me irritated.
cz i noe how it feels when ur own guy friend kena kutok like dat by de ghurlfriend cliques..
but do you ever noe how it feels?
go and bobual about ur boyfriend age before talking about other's boyfriend age.

shut self up.
thanks.

thursday.

2008-07-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

bodoh nyer nurse.
painful larh okay.
gt my hepatitis B at alexandra hosp.
and had ds mask-fitting thing.
half day from werk.
and i miss de people.
hahha!
pauline.
be reminded im not wif any of de doctors fer de afternoon session larh.
ure like asking me dat question again?
missed me much k.
and yes..
i noe ive been werking like a playground wif crazzy people like you.
hahhah..
will be back tomorrow larh.
im only leaving you people fer 2 half days mah.

and ya.
can i strangle dat nurse instead?
pain in de ass okay.
she injected me at de bone!
still have de heart to ask me again..
"u okay not?"
dengz.

and ya..
to ex-boyfriend..
thanks fer ur stoopid care and concern..
tu bukan care and concern deng.
tu tak kisah langsong.
boleh lagk ketawekn orang ngh sakit2..
bodoh.

and ya..
bus broke down.
luckily not at de expressway..
and ds one guy is not so de gentleman larh okay.
we were standing and when someone was alighting,he quickly grab de place.
nie ker gentleman?
luckily i donnoe dat malay guy.
harapkan muka handsome but not gentleman.
duh.
=))

promotion dinner.

2008-07-24T22:18:00.002+08:00

dinner wif de doctors yesterday were simply great and fun.
okay2..

now i noe how sick my doctors are..
hey!
dey're only at de range of 25 and 26 okay..
simply craps.
talking about how pub girls are..
how to tackle de girls..
and dey were even trying to tackle ds one lady hor.
told you my doctors are simply crazzy.
and dey even planning fer M.O.S after dat..
hahah!!
but unlikely two of dem were on standby fer call in alexandra hospital...
aww..
pity you.
sad enuf huh..
but simply..
even my collegues werent dere,
i had my two people from audio clinic wif me.

and simply..
de youngsters..
which were us:
me..
terrance..
doctor gavin..
doctor nicholas..
and..
doctor mei yee whom is not too youngsters..
heheh..
had de little dirty conversation..
heheh..
and doctor sherrida was late okay!
if not u would have joined de conversation.

but overall,
everything was perfectly fine,fun and great.
never ever regret about it hor..
and thanks doctor david loke and doctor ranjini fer de care and concern on wht time i reached home yesterday night.
and thanks and congrats to doctor paul mok fer de promotion dinner and becoming de senior associate consultant.
uve taught me alot too again hor..
=))

and thanks to someone fer making my day de fcuking irrirating day okay.
thanks.

looking fer job?

2008-07-24T22:16:00.001+08:00

anyone looking fer job?
my werk place are in need of finding more and more people.
cz dey are extending de place.
drop me a message okay.
itz at jurong medical center.
=))

updates.

2008-07-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

okay2..
rinsie honey..
im updating..
im updating..
heheh..

jz woke up from la-la land.
hahah!!
weirdo.
itz 12.15am and i jz woke up from my dreamland.

de reason fer it?
firstly..
youngest bro sneeked into de room jz to charge PSP.
slenge.
secondly..
de mcspicy which was bought from Rizman,my primary skool mate still sensed into de nose.
hahha!!
thirdly..
crazzy ex-boyfriend have not yet give dat call.
and work was jz over.
abg syehrul!!
luckily u never spoilt everything yesterday..
klau tak..
memang kau aku genyeh2..
eee!!
geram okay.
slenge.
mcm mnaer ur fiance never petpot2..
padan muke!!
and u..
like muke sardine..
like nothing happened..
and sure im gonna tell kakak if you find fault wif me okay.

dinner at furama riverfront hotel..
wif doctors!!
after werk..
sure and hoping to love it..
fetched me someone..
=))

hello.

2008-07-17T20:38:00.002+08:00

boo!
been days ive not updating kan??
life's been great.
work been fun.
i loike.
frens at work are nice.
clicked wif dem.
learnt and talked and chatted and laughed alots.
and de doctors are great!
taught me something too.
patients dere are more fun.

will be having promotion dinner held my own doctor.
fer getting de promotion.
hotel seh.
but tell me lah.
how am i suppose to go if i donno how to go seh?
3 of my own people are not going..
firstly..
dey are married women..
secondly..
dey have something on..
on dat day..
was asking my in charge whether shes going..
no larh okay!
im representing self fer my own department.
siow!

im wondering if two of my audiologists are going..
heard dat janet is going..
and im hoping terence is coming along too okay.
i noe u noe our secrets of not going dere..
i'll go if u go lor..
cz ure de only guy audiologists doctor dat i can clique wif lehh..
go okay?
and hoping doctor nicholas going too..
heheh!!
u see..
working dere is fun.
people and including doctors dere are way too crazy!!
i loike.
tell me to stop werking?
no i wont.
hehh..
=)

saturday!
dikir competition.
cuzin.
mit up okay.
cz i donno how to go.
hahah!!
hehee..
=)

NDP National Education.

2008-07-06T10:35:00.003+08:00

okay2.
hairi msged yesterday.
"any plans? lets go marina fer NDP.."
i was like..
"err.. NDP?"
okay2..
i never realised dat next month is August.
like what nanie said..
"SUMPAH"...
ya..
sumpah and i swear i never realised it will be august next month.
oit.
cepat nyer!

and whoosh..
i msged hairi and said..
"JOM!!"
i was plain boring larh.
dats y i went.
hahah!!
heee..

while on de way..
i was feeling fine.
upon reaching city hall..
i'll tell u something k..
i almost faint larh.
suddenly got my migraine..
was surprised at dat time..
coz i suddenly saw MANY reds and MANY people..
terpranjat okay.
dats y i suddenly have migraine due to shock.
i guess i'll be having ds sinuses uh..

msged hairi to be fast.
haha!!
nurse came to de rescue with bags full of mentos??
kau buat lawak per?
* smack *

and on de way..
peeped thru adidas outlet to see someone..
hahah!!
got ya..
she saw me larh.
AH-TON [sharon]
hahah..
miss you larh.
happy working uh..
hahah..
and dont give me dat face lehh..
he's not my boyfren hor..

so..
reached marina dere..
aww..
memories having my ndp wif mates dere..
hahah!!
den whom i saw??
those ndp mates..
dey also not joining wif de ndp nimore seh..
heheh..

tell you something k..
ds year ndp was boring larh..
hairi was busy self taking and snapping pics..
myself and hairi's bunk mate were playing PSP larh.
fer goodness sake..
it was boring..
betol..
tak bedek..
i'll upload de pics soon fer you people okay.
tired uh.
=)

work.

2008-07-05T11:18:00.003+08:00

back.

feeling tired still.

work is going fun.

people dere are great.

doctors dere are sizzling hot.

haha!

heee..

when deres no patients,im done wif job.

cool or what.

some days took me 3 hours sitting in de clinic,

crapping wif de people dere.

but whatever it is,

im tired larh.

md nor!

happy 21st okay.

da besar anak mak nie satu.

next week teman aku g lunch okay!

hehhe..

md shahrill!

happy advance 19th too okay.

aku takyah nk jumper kau larh.

please k.

malas ku nak layan kau.

md izhar!

meng choon!

happy NS okay.

hehhe..

few days more.

woohoo.

of becoming abg botak,abg gondol.

heheh..

a recruit of POLICE.

police!

hehhe.

oh well..

do take care of urself okay people.

monday.

2008-06-30T20:17:00.002+08:00

tomorrow!

work.

was looking ferwerd to meet mister ex boyfiee.

but hes going back to office after work on every tuesday and friday.

boohoo.

and friday,

confirm2 he's going CC fer dikir.

and he told me confirm2 dier kene rembat.

and confirm2 hes turning de new age.

and confirm2 aku lagik dier ketawekn,

fer being too jealous.

bleagh.

bodoh.

stoopidfool.

idioticfool.

shut up you!

k2.

have to tido early.

tomorrow work seh!

first date.

2008-06-30T12:44:00.002+08:00

okay.
out of few and many months.
yesterday was our first date again with ex boyfiee.
back to basic.

went town in de afternoon.
caught movie WANTED in LIDO.
angelina jolie.
whoa.
i hate her.
but okay larh.
fer dat movie.
she was fine.
preety indeed.
md nor!
i watched it olreadi.
hehhe..

after buying tickets,
he was asking me whether i recognise one of ds couple infront of us.
and i was like.. " err.. which one?"
den..
taa-daa.
de guy turned and it was nizam.
ex boifee dikir barat mate.
wif his cute,small ghurlfriend larh.
cute kan de both of you!!

den..
before movie,
had our makan at kfc.
full we had.
and guess whom i saw?
shah iskandar.
cuzzie pe'ah.
i saw him lah.
out of many people?
duh.

before went to movie,
had our shopping.
thanks ex-boyfiee.
fer de MANGO.
had 2 tops bought by him.

den after movie,
guess whom i saw again?
NURRA!!
yes!
our IST kak nurra.
aww..
she was in de same theatre with me.
wif her,her fiance,and deir frens sitting infront of our seats.
heheheh!!
preety larh u sister.
sweet.

den after dat,
home sweet home.

and oh boy!
parents knew about it.

friday.

2008-06-27T23:05:00.002+08:00

went out fer lunch wif nanie.
met up.
as usual.
im de queen of lateness kan??
hahahha!!

woke up way early morning.
at 7.15am.
thanks ehk ex-boyfriend fer de reporting strength.
so woke up.
as usual.
online.

den met her.
went amk hub.
bought muffins.
and off to dhobby ghaut HSBC.
done ds.
done dat.
and off fer lunch.
im telling you..
i was sooooo hungry okay.
and dat made me undecided what to eat.
oh boy.
and lastly.
long john again.
dat was de last resort.
cz i never knew dat de plan fer bugis was still on.
if not i surely goes fer bugis and MAKAN!!
ergh...

next lunch time okay..
err..
when ehk?
hahahha!!
im starting job soon.
and oh boy!
im gonna miss everything.
and psst...
i miss someone2..
ex-boyfriend!!
oh tidak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

meet up ghurlfriend lina fer wedding in yew tee.
and yes!
im miting you dere,miss zarinah.
bring it on!
=)

thursday.

2008-06-27T22:32:00.003+08:00

yesterday was thursday.
was at home de whole day in de afternoon.
and went out at night.

went jalan kayu with younger bro and ex-boyfriend.
got a call from him asking fer dinner.
and off we went about 7.30pm.

upon reaching,
waited fer de guys to finished up deir cigarettes,
and off we went to out seats.
talked.
laughed.
chatted.
and what i missed most was..
de companion.

after settling everything with our dinner,
went to our usual hang out.
yishun dam.
mrepek okay.
with younger brother around lagik.
dey left me behind.
alone.
and oh boy!
thanks.

dey went fer driving.
cz brother was so eager to drive de vehicle.
which made ex-boyfriend to drove him around.
and left me alone.
and yes.
de fav pillow was in de vehicle.
and thank goodness,
my lover was with me.

yerp2..
i have new lover.
new companion.
which i confiscated it from ex-boyfriend.
hahah!!
padan muke kau!!
aku suke.

den we talked.
chatted.
laughed.
wrestled.
oh boy!
i missed everything.
damn.

should i like give mister az a call?
hmm..
should not fer de time being.
cz i hate it.
u noe i noe people donnoe mister az talks.
oh tidak!
aku benci.

and nanie..
i remembered ur question..
if i got de chance if he ask me to be de companion..
i should think hundred milllion zillion billion times..
cz u shud noe de way of his talkings..
ergh.
whatever.

and oh boy.
im feeling soo excited and scared of my new job.
oh no..
cant be having late nights anymore.
cant be hanging on de phone with ex-boyfriend anymore.
cant be going out fer lunch anymore.
cant be chatting online in de morning till afternoon anymore.
haiya..
i miss everything..

cliques outing.

2008-06-26T00:55:00.003+08:00

and oh!
i had wonderful time today.
met up cliques!!
so glad okay.
i miss you people like mcspicy,mc nuggets and cheeseburger without mister pickle with salty fries add on with cool cokes and sprites okay..
oh gosh we got to catch up with time even thou u people were from working place..
and me from my afternoon nap after my collection of uniforms.
and md nor really knew what happened in de train.
i slept from raffles place till ang mo kio which was when md nor woke me up.
tido mati seh.

yerp2.
i got my job.
signed.
collected my uniforms.
and oh!
only dey knew how i felt when going to start my job soon.

and ya..
it wont be at Alexandra Hospital.
and md nor.
deres no nid fer u to scare me okay.
=P

alright.
resting soon.
so people.
another meet up session again okay?
till i get my first pay.
haha!

u people are missed.
and nanie.
hope u did enjoy urself with us.
even thou we wanna make it as a surprise when dat someone2 with another someone2 burst out de secrets.
whoa!
* hugs *

Patient Service Associate.

2008-06-24T15:10:00.002+08:00

whippie!
i got a job!
as Patient Service Associate at Alexandra Hospital.
at last!!

happily called people up.
called ex-boyfriend up first. [ of all people? ]
den azri. [ blabbering non-stop ]
den ayah.[ suke nah aku call ehk? ]
den izhar. [ thanks fer pausing ur KL Drift.. hahha!! ]
den md nor [ sleeping still ]
den msged nanie. [ kerje keras nmpak? ]

so..
tomorrow will be going down to sign everything.
and my uniforms.
oh sungguh tidak!
azri laughed.
GEMOK.
im not larh.
hahha!! [ takleh accept nmpak? ]

so again..
be having cliques meet up!!
oh im loving it.
date: 26th june 2008
day: thursday
time: 1830 hours
venue: town
den after dat,we'll have a visit fer you my miss doraemon!!
i miss you leh.
cant wait!
=)

perfumes and cosmetics.

2008-06-24T11:29:00.002+08:00

oh ya.
im not selling any perfumes nor cosmetic nimore.
sorry.
due to things which cant be solved.
sorry.
and to those whom have ordered with me,
IM SORRY.
cz ur stuffs were put behind.
and i cant take it back.
SORRY.

sunday.

2008-06-24T10:49:00.003+08:00

okay2.
went out wif nanie,din,az.
double date?
haha!
nah.
itz actually a family day thing going on.
fer nanie ler.
her werk place having ds makan session.
mcdonalds.
oh tidak!

thanks nanie fer everything.
thanks fer de treat.
next time my turn okay?
and thanks fer de advises on "kenekan dier".
and oh!
i jz cant wait to TAKE OVER EVERYTHING.
cant wait!

izhar.
please okay.
listen to my side of story.
and you can listen to my advisor,nanie okay.
fer de whole story of "wanie and de ex-boyfriend".
duh.
and stop blabbering mrepekz.
sepak kang.

sunday.
went out to makan.
den walked around Suntec.
and off to city hall.
fer my drivers.
hahha.
off to LAYAR CITRA 2008.

saw miss suzy and mister taufiq.
oit.
u uh.
im waiting fer you and yet kau da pergi dulu.
samdol.
upon reaching dere,
guess whom i saw??

oh tidak!!
saw cuzin's husband.
nah.
haha.
and more!!
saw:
ibni and ghurlfren [sumpah klau kau tegur aku,aku TAK AKAN tegur kau]
suzy [ my primary school junior whom i actually dont recall, hehe ]
idah [ ouh... my ITE pweety school mate whom is actually apit's ghurlfren ]
someone [ whom actually from ITE Bishan, product design whom i fergt de name,ex boyfriend team mate ]
abg mokhtar [ cute kan kamu on de stage ]
abg ayie [ heheh.. shocked uh ]
yaya [ azri's ex ghurlfriend.. haha!! ]
kak mel [ heheh.. shocked ehk saw me dere? ]
AN [ oh boy. cute kan dier. but please ehk kawan nyer tkmo feeling2.. attention to muhd izhar bin abu bakar ]

so datz about it.
de next day,
met md nor to tampines central.
fer interview.
and guess whom i saw?
MAISARAH [ someone's ex-ghurlfren ].
shut up okay izhar.
and padan muke kene marah ngn mak.
aku suke dengar mak kau nyer beleteh.
only at dat point of time.
hehehe.
and den in de afternoon,
met chemong.
accompanied her fer shopping.
and off we went our ways.

met dat ex-boyfriend again fer PSP.
=)

only he noes.

2008-06-22T10:29:00.003+08:00

haha!
only GOD noes how i felt yesterday.
and only nanie noes how i am yesterday.
and only i noe how i feel being around him yesterday.
oh gosh.

today is his dikir competition.
i wish i could be dere to watch it larh.
but miss suzy is not coming down.
and u never want me to be dere alone wif de kakaks2.
hehhe.
shy okay.
hehehee..
all de best.
you have my support in everything dat u do alright.

almost shouted to taufiq yesterday.
which was actually i thot it was him lah kan.
cz i was playing PSP.
concentrating okay.
haha!
sorry beb.
and dere he goes again.
tengok muke aku jek,kau tak abes2 pening.

den.
hoping everything goes well today okay.
ring up when itz done.

now dressing up self to meet nanie,din and azri.
free makan!
wheetz.
=)

more fun dates coming up.

2008-06-20T02:21:00.003+08:00

at last.
someone is replying to my msges.
dengz!
itz free thing mah.
of coz he'll comes along.
datz y he replied.
but with no public transport.
ergh.
regrets.
duhz!

and whoppie!
de fun dates are here.
i wish fer de happenings.
i loike.
wani suke okay.

so.
tmrw will be asking lin and za out on sunday.
free makan dok!
mcdonalds.
hee.
nanie blanje.
hehhehe...
nah..
de company is having ds makan session on going.
so she's finding fer victims to join makan.
actually and supposedly her sister and nephew and niece are coming along.
but nenek disagreed.
aww...
y not u ajak de nenek skali kan best?
heee.
opps.

den she asked me whether i want or not.
only crazzy people never want free makan.
of coz i want.
im sorry ex-boyfriend.
i noe ure wanting me to be dere fer de competition.
but suzy self is not confirm yet seh.
so i rather confirm self to go makan larh.
can ehk?
but all de best fer ur dikir comp.

so.
dat make us a full house if both meow2 are confirm.
okay2.
nanie is de one who ask me to help asking u ghurls k.
so make it up.
hehehe..

so dat make.
nanie.
din.
wanie.
azri.[din's fren]
lin.[to be confirm]
za.[to be confirm].
will update more.

irritating sungguh larh dier.

damn.
i have to crack self again.
cracking and hatching self.
from de past to de present.
from now till forever.

title-less.

2008-06-20T00:38:00.002+08:00

oh no.
memekak again.
haha!
finding faults jek kan?
i noe.
u find fault.
i also find fault.
huhu.
bluek.
no fair noe.
u say dat.
den i also wanna say dat seh.
now pujok aku cepat.
hahha.
i noe im being evil.
padan muke.
serve u right.

i wonder y he call me middle nights when im asleep?
nothing to do.
disturb me again larh nie?
pantat.
but u gt de wrong timing.
hehhehe.[evil laugh].
but i thot ure gonna call me up in next "two days or two weeks"?
hehhehe.
call aku lagik larh izhar.
best kan?

den again.
md nor never call me today.
message also no where to be seen.
hehhe..
gt scolded from me yesterday night fer being soo irritating.
hehhe.
sorry mister.

and salleh?
urgh.
ferget it.
lazy to layan another irritating bobual mrepekz person.

oit.
mister.
call aku balek dum2.
aku ngh mrajok nie.
hehhe.
mcm paham.
duh.
=)

updates.

2008-06-19T15:16:00.005+08:00

come!

itz time fer me to update what happened before i went fer my holidays.

8th june.

went to a friend's wedding.

congrats izzat and sarinah.

aww..

saw de secondary school mates.

even thou itz a not a complete group.

but ya..

nice to meet you people.

even thou i never talk!

thanks.

den after dat,

rushed home and changed.

rushing to airport.

sending off our deary jai.

ya..

even thou we're a big group of 10 people.

only 2 of us managed to come.

yerp2..

de same people.

nanie and wanie.

chin yong?

last minute thing AGAIN.

de rest?

nah..

izhar?

u noe i noe.

ferget it okay.

so..

i'll update de pics fer u alright.

...

2008-06-18T16:59:00.002+08:00

he's back.
oh no.
ergh.
baru nak feeling being single.
and den came a person.

please.
i nid time.
i nid freedom.
i nid maself.
i nid bestie!
oh no.
where de hell is he??
azizi donut!!
u come and go.
u come and lost again in de woods.

22nd.
dikir barat comp.
to go or not to go.
waiting fer suzy.
if itz confirm,
confirm2 i nid to have de long chat wif u miss.
and den..
ergh.
i have to meet ex-boyfriend lagik larh nie.
aku benci.
damn.

someone today doesnt report to work.
asking someone to take over his place fer today.
reason?
tired.
and yesterday he was #$#%$#% to me.
cz i never noe he wants to go out mah to accompany me.
but den,
instead,
i asked mat nor along.
hhehe..
haiya.
mister CD.
u uh.
u noe me seh.
wont be asking u.
but waiting fer u to ask me.
u everytime like dis.
siow.
den now never talked to me pon.
aku lagik kene.

links to pics in KL.

2008-06-18T15:46:00.002+08:00

woah.
aunt told us not to go holiday at Port Dickson.
cz today u'll be sleeping here,
de next day when u woke up,u'll be de other side of de room.
eee..
scary okay.

so2..
heres de link fer de pics in KL.
enjoy okay.
http://nanie88.multiply.com/photos/album/53/KL_trips.?replies_read=5
http://stolenkissses.multiply.com/photos/album/20/mystic_star_...
http://herpastmemories.multiply.com/photos/album/18/KL_TRIP_D?replies_read=4

back from KL

2008-06-18T14:43:00.002+08:00

im back!
yes.
from no where.
hee.

got back from KL holidays wif family.
oh!
how nice it is.
but itz not a complete ones.
dey're busy still wif school stuffs.
huhu.
be sure to join us fer holidays next time okay.
de more,de merrier.
i miss de ghurls larh.

so ya.
holiday started on wednesday till monday late morning.
woke up early morning at 5am really makes me go goo-goo gaa-gaa.
cz i slept at 3am lehh.
was on de fone wif salleh.mat nor.and shahrill but of coz wif different timings.
dey are just mates on de fone.
hectic will happen when talking to dem.
ya.
shahrill.
shocked?
i am too.
itz just dat shahrill whom i had history with.

ya..
so on dat tuesday,
went out wif mister az.
met him.
thanks fer coming down urself even thou u had plans wif ur frens.
itz you who wanted sangat to come down.
met him.
den went back.

so wednesday morning.
boarded de bus at harbourfront.
double deck.
fun trip i guess.
boarded de bus.
check on passports.
and taa-daa.
slept in it.

reached KL about 1pm.
waited fer uncle.
thot hes coming wif de family.
but nah.
he came by wif only his small car fer our 13 people.
duh.
so we had 2 cabs to lead our way to putrajaya.
fun.
been a long time fer holidays.

reached.
saw cuzie.
and his cuzie.
put our bags.
and off fer makan.
hungry i am.
and rested de whole day after coming back from makan.

2nd day.
instead of going out wif mum and aunts.
left wif dad and siblings and cuzzies.
off to de museum den to pertaling street.
i noe i'll follow mum.
i got bullied fer being de only girl.
den i gt injured when bowling.
duh.
thanks.
night reached.
mom and aunts came wif alot of shopping bags.
duh.
jealous okay.
no prob.
im fine.
cz i maself donno wht to shop fer self.
haha!

3rd day.
went to genting highlands.
and dat was soo coool.
and cold.
had our bumpy ride up on to de cable car.
cable car is so seriously high okay.
hada was cramping into me.
but overall,
cool ride kan?
ehhehe..
so spent time at genting till night at 8.30 fer our bus ride home.
upon reaching KL,
all went dumb.
no buses anymore.
even thou it was 9pm.
aper seh.
tak paham sungguh.
and we took taxi ride home.
cz nephew was fast way asleep.
and cuzin fell sick.
and me wif my backbone problem.
oh no!
it really hurts.
i miss my bed at dat point of time.

4th day.
went shopping at alamanda.
i mean it was a window shopping fer me.
seriously.
i went blurred.
i donno what to buy dere.
den in de evening,
went off to uncle's kampong.
at dengkil.
unique name indeed.
after camwhoring and everything.
went off.
but durians dere were never fergotten.
yummy yum2..

5th day.
last day.
went to alamanda again.
this time its shopping time.
bought 2 blouses.
recommended by mom.aunt.and cuzzies.
if not i'll tell u,i wont be buying anything.
seriously.
den off we went back home.
with wrong bus.
hahah.
experienced in putrajaya.
hehhe.

night reached.
our bus leave at 10.30pm.
reached hotel.
camwhoring wif cuzzie to KLCC.
fun okay.
those cuzzies are just crazzy.
den 9.30pm,
went back to hotel lounge.
and dats de last day and few minutes left to spent wif cuzzies from KL.
aww..
nice one okay abg yin.
and ive posted ur pics out olreadi.
heheh..

okay2.
bus ride.
aww..
dat bus in charge is way too hot kan?
aww..
heheh..

yeah..
i did bought wallet from petaling street.
and my adek was fcuking bising okay i bought a wallet.

ergh!
i hate his ghurlfren larh okay.
and de sister too.
aku benci.
fer no reason.

square one.

2008-06-05T13:48:00.000+08:00

im back wif square one.
ya..

IST missed.

2008-06-05T13:40:00.002+08:00

i noe ds may sounds stupid.
but...
izhar!!
aku rindu kau nyer kebodohan..
aku nak jumper kau before kau korbankn diri kau jadik police boy on de 7th july 2008.

okay larh.
i guess ds may sounds stupid seh.
but meng choon!!
ure going to be a police boy soon wif izhar??
meet up and have a small gathering larh.
u guys are just missing in action..
and khai chuan!!
what happened ehk?
tekong olreadi??
chin yong!!
ferget it..
every week i see ur face..

okay2..
i miss everyone in IST okay.
niwae..
how is vanessa ehk?
i mean our skywalker?

imesh.

2008-06-04T21:44:00.002+08:00

what a life.
made up imesh is becoz im so jealous of boyfriend.
which i guess is an ex-boyfriend.
ya2..
all my faults aper..
donnoe how to be patience in life?!
den salahkn everything to me becoz of photos?!
please larh.
im not like de ghurls out dere who wanna be fcuk about deir relationship life wif boyfriend larh okay.
if ure reading ds blog, THINK.

having imesh is soo troublesome..
seriously.
all ghurlfren and ex ghurlfren of my frens are like haunting my life?
betol nyer s**l uh..
i rather quit having ds imesh.
im online only fer songs.
mind you alright.
so i guess i'll be deleting some of my connections..

a good friend

2008-06-04T11:32:00.002+08:00

okay2..
i did received a message in de morning..
a friend of mine gt into an accident..
hes my shoulder to cry on..
hes my friend to talk to..
hes my friend whom i joked with..
he met an accident today morning..
injured both his hand..
both his knees and legs..
pray fer him please?
i never wanna lose a good friend.
coz we just had dis joking story..
and a crazzy question dat no one ever asked me..
noe what?
he asked me.." wani tak sakit?"
it means.. " wanie not sick?"
what a question seh..

i messaged back to dat number..
whch actually is his number..
asking de hospital and ward..
but not a reply i received till now..
please..
pray fer him..
nothing would happened..
im crying.
seriously.
i never wanna lose a good friend.

amin..
i hope ure fine my dear friend.

friend in need,friend indeed.

2008-06-03T19:08:00.003+08:00

imesh checked.
den deres ds one ghurl.
viewing.
so aper lagk kan?
viewed her back larh.
tink i appear offline,donnoe anything ehk?
heheh..

den a qsn came out from de chat box.
how u noe him?
i was like..
"huh? him?"
"i knew him from imesh"..
"y ehk?"
she was just asking..
haiz..
y on earth everyone is asking me about ds guy and dat guy..
but u people are just ex couples..
and im jz a friend of deirs..
abeh investigate tak abes2 seh..
ds is how life is when ure in square one.

and den..
talked to az.
told him about it larh.
shocked he was.
blur i guess?
slenge is him.
he just donnoe what to do..
we talked.
and he was in pain of de heart not noeing what to do.
and wondering y on earth she did dat.

ya..
some people noe de story of her and him..
kan nanie?
rite mat nor?
but when comes to think about it..
when dat party doesnt noe whats going on between her and him..
please just dont make a big fuss out of de box..
we're just friends..
and yes!
i noe..
particularly dat someone will said,
if ure being wif a guy,anything can happen.
fcuk u larh.
u think im soo desperate ke per?
jahanam.

yes.
we never deny dat we had dis feelings.
but simply said..
we're just friends..
infactuation happens..
and i noe i cant help it but we're just friends okay.
de close one.
nothing more.
cz i noe where i stand at dat point of time.
but now square one.
so ya..

he was just bloodly explaining and telling me about how it happened.
and i told him what really happened.
shocked.
and he did explained everything..
thanks fer explaining.
but u shud noe dat i'll never look down on you my dear.
a friend shud always be dere fer one.
dont think mrepekly again..

and fer dat game..
have de support fer u and ur team mates.
hope everything goes fine and smoothly.

due to some problems and misunderstandings,i'll not post out de name.

sham..
im sorry i cant help you..
u noe me best kan..
ure in need of it..
me too..
im sorry.
buzz me indeed again okay.

tiring day

2008-06-03T18:14:00.002+08:00

back to square one.
haiz.

firstly,
yesterday was seriously tiring larh kan.
de work.
oh gosh.
vincent.
ure late!
and we're doing ure part of runner?
best per lari here and dere.
haven even start wif my task,chin,cuzin and self was perspiring larh kan.
semput sia.
those 3 malay guys nk step maner nyer hensem jek tau.
tolong pon tidak.
bertuah tol.

den work!
back to my fav place.
grandstand arena.
kecoh okay.
firstly gate haven open larh.
and i have to talk2 wif de pakcik dere.
whom actually asked me to call him abang?
hahahha..
kecoh larh kan.
open gate also nk kecoh2 per?
gate open.
and i tell u larh kan.
ngamok again seh..
those people put my table under de sun?
want me to die of heat isit?
de rajin uncles help me out..
thanks..

time shows 5+..
no one is seen dere yet..
at 6..
kecoh starts.
many people came.
alot alot of people came.
den my favourite reporters came.
wooo..
best larh de work.
but about 41 reporters came okay.
den de supporters all came..
wah!!
den saw ds one guy wif another 2 people.
seems familiar..
skali got to noe my msn chatter.
belo.

okay2.
job on monday was fun but tiring and simply cool.
today not working.
simply sick.
and i guess becoz of sham's sneezes cz me de sneezin larh kn..
thanks fer ur contagious sneeze.

today.
sat at home.
baked cookies.
yummy okay.
got credits from mom.
youngest brother was like saying "kak.. y ur cookies like dat?"
den after dat hes de one who finish up everything okay..
clever per?
but simply credits okay i got today.
woohoo!!

boring weekends.

2008-06-01T18:19:00.002+08:00

hmm..
so what did i do dese days ehk?
hmm..
out only lor..
wif parents..
boring is my life seh..
and guess what?
im having running nose balek ler plak..
and de giddyness..
oh no.

okay2.
mister lcp azri msged me.
dengz.
nanie!!
za!!
tengok uh kawan korangz nie..
he told me i kept myself quiet plak.
padahal2..
bertuah kn dat irritating nuisance guy..
my fault meh?

aunts are buying tickets fer KL tomorrow.
im hoping2..
seriously hoping tickets are still on sale.
please..
give me de happy and good news.
i seriously in need of de good news.

and guess what?
i miss bestie.
wonder where is he seh.
he never tag me no more.
azizi!!
where are u lehh?
dead uh?
dont be seh..
u seriously have de heart to leave ur bestie behind here ehk..
tag me if ure still alive seh..
heheh..

singles outing.

2008-05-30T12:32:00.004+08:00

went out to meet nanie and za at amk.

supposedly have to meet up at 12 in raffles.

but nah..

i jz had something to do.

and i was crying mrepekly lor..

den after dat,

agreed to meet dem at 1.30pm.

and guess what?

i was still at home la.

nanie called up.

and i was crying still.

imagine ds..

u cried.

den u stop.

tired olreadi mah.

den after dat u talked to ur fren,

and he asked u everything on what happened.

and dere you are continue crying again..

den after cooled down,

ur ghurlfriend called u up..

den cried again..

hahahah!!

we met.

and settle her problems.

ahhaah!!

giler bayangan nyer pompan.

please la..

she cant stop talking and mumbling about him sia de whole dae.

lucky u ur ghurlfriends are fine..

and..

we planned fer having de singles ghurlfriends outing..

yes!!

all single olreadi mah..

and..

yes nanie..

i think i can accept her back after all ds while..

siti haslinda!!

ure soon gonna mit us up soon fer ghurls gathering..

make urself free.

but shud be after my KL holiday trip uh..

hahaah..

yan.

2008-05-28T11:17:00.003+08:00

went out to esplanade wif mat nor.
thanks deary fer being my listening ear.
and fer bullying aku kan fer de whole day.
im was fcuking pissed off wif dem.
and dere you are.
instead of consoling me.
ure like bullying me.
and were laughing at me sia!!
fer dat incident on dat friday night.
u noe i noe public seriously donnoe okay.
heheh!!
hahahah...

den after dat,
received a call from yan.
had to go hospital cz he had an accident.
i was like "errr.. okay.. den i'll accompany you den.."
mat nor and i were like waiting fer an hour.
even thou he told me dat he'll be reaching in 20 mins.
bnyak kau nyer 20 mins.
he was like in de shower wif soap in his eyes.
which made it to be 1 hour reaching time.
sorry mat nor fer making you accompanying me.

went alexandra upon reaching to peninsula.
his eyes was swollen.
"tu lah.. tgk pompan lagk time on de road.. kn kene langgar taxi.."
hehehhe..

____________________________________________________________________________________

and now..
i was chatting wif ds lady.
she was okay lah.
den she was asking me..
"ure a fren of yan?"
and i asnwered "ya..."
and den ds stoopid question came out..
i asked her..
"are de both of you couples?"
fuck!
she told me shes attached to him recently..
dey're attached?
my deary fren is attached and never did tell us or even me?
i was like so fcuked up.
den..
i never even think of anything and straight away msged yan..
i guess it was jumping to conclusion.
i never did asked him anything.
and yet i was went to asked him without waiting fer his answers.
but den i remembered yan telling me about ds lady.
firstly,shes married.
secondly,she is yan's stalker.
and i thought of dat after i msged yan wif a long page of msges.
u noe i noe dat i never like ds kind of situation.
and somemore,a gd fren who lied to u?
okay wait!
did he lied?
or is she trying to make up a story here?

now i just need yan to ring me up to explain everything.
cz he's my listening ear,
and me his listening companion.
listening ear larh..

so yan..
ring me up alright.
i noe deres something or some explaination here.
and i noe ure going to tell me something from last time till now.
so i just need to noe everything now.

28 things most ghurls wont noe. i donnoe. seriously.

2008-05-25T16:36:00.002+08:00

i guess dese are true?
dat i maself dont really noe anything about it seh.

Guys hate sluts even though
they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not 'popular' ifyou've slept with more than 6guys..you're a HOE)

Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they trulycare about.

Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him

Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

Guys get jealous easily.

Guys are more emotional than they'll like people to think.
Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind..'
would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
A usual act that proves that the guylikes you is when he teases you.

Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

Guys think WAY too much.
One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure outwhat it meant.

Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys.
Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, thenwe're all confused.

When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying,
'Please come and listen to me.'

If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him.
It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't.
It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

Don't be a snob.
Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
If you are going to reject a guy,just do it.
Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more.
Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

holidays

2008-05-25T16:26:00.003+08:00

im counting down fer my holidays to KL.
pweety please!!
i really need holidays.
seriously.
please.

jobs?
come back later after my holidays can?
please!!

i really really need to ease de mind.
and im going to leave everything and everyone behind..
hahah!!
padan muke.
aku suke.
dese are de names dat i wanna leave dem behind:
ilah
nanie
amalina
nor
azri
yan
dhil
hidir
hahahah!!
but firstly..
please la.
i need my holidays.
please come by fast.
please!!

thanks.seriously.

2008-05-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

chatted wif goody irritating bastard friend of mine yesterday night.
cz i was crying again!!
hes jz my listening ear..
after izhar which actually i donno where he hide himself.
deng!
2 dayz are up.
lost count ehk?

yes2..
i was crying again..
at my window..
with open window grill.
with cigarette.
yes i noe!!
i donnoe y ds thing happen.
i was totally pissed off and stress and dats y i smoke.
don judge me with anything.
cz i noe im not a regular smoker.
sorry cuzins..
and sorry ghurlfriends.
cz i cannot tahan olreadi yesterday.
totally stressed up.

nor was jz my listening ear.
i was reluctant to tell him everything.
i mean every of my problems.
but i just cant lah.
cz nor is just so close to me fer my hearing ear.
i was staring at those stars.
talking to nor,and looking at those.
i was wondering if he is looking at de same star which im looking at.
cz we were looking at those stars de night before at east coast.
it was seriously nice.
and i cried la.
i was hearing to "sendu di hatimu,rindu di jiwaku - sang by arrow".
and nor was laughing at me la kn.
* hiak-dush *

he was trying to cheer me up.
but i was crying very terok on de fone.
fer those who heard my cries b4,how was it?
hahaha..
k2..
i was waiting fer de msges.
but it was juz a waste.
i was thinking negatively.
serious.

cz he went over to meet his fren,whch was actually i guess it was his ex.
cz he told me before hes going over to her place to take back his helmet.
but im jumping to conclusion again?
i guess?
but ergh!
what was i thinking?
firstly i told him everything..
secondly im having ds feeling.
dey!
what happen to me?
dont anyhow seh wanie.
remember he is just a friend okay.
ds happened after he heard my cries.
you noe what i mean kn nor?

and he called me juz now.
informing me dat he cant msg me and have no free incoming cz of de low prepaid.
hey!!
u jz top it up dat monday.
de day u went out wif dat friend whom u lied to me.
bodoh per.
and deres no need fer u to talk like dat kn?!
double bodoh.
dengz.

and guess what?
double trouble fer me today.
or i'll make it as triple trouble.
but i'll asure u dat i'll update someday later okay?
got to rest lappy fer now.
den mit up za and nanie to amk hub.
amk lagk.
hope never ever bang into someone familiar.
i just have ds feeling of bang into someone.
please2..
babez.
lepak banquet?
hahaha!!

dat night.

2008-05-25T15:23:00.003+08:00

watching those stars at night..
hearing those waves really eased my mind..
i simply love dat moment.
thanks fer bringing me to dat place just to ease everything.
and i cried okay.

ive been stressed up.
only certain noes what happen.
it really makes me go tralalalaa..
cz im on a roller coaster ride..

those stars and waves are just my hearing aids..
where i gave away my pains and laughters at dat moment of time..
even thou azri was dere too..
i cried infront of him pon.
dengz!

from de time we came,
he talked about de ex ghurlfriend.
okay.
as a close friend,i ought to hear his cries,his laughters,his problems,etc...
but if itz a short time,it'll be okay and fine wif me..
ds was like..
de time we came,and de time we went back.
deng.

and i cried after everything was peacefully quiet.
which i realised he himself kept quiet too..
i was like wondering..
"what happen to him?"
"and what is going on wif me?"
those stars blinking wif de nice cold weather and waves are just my witness fer my cries on dat day.
i cried my problems out on de windbreaker.
and im telling you i simply love dat moment where im trying to washed away my problems.
i never been or happened to be in ds kind of situation where i sat by de sea.

thanks azri fer hearing me out.
thank you fer hearing my cries.
thank you fer hearing what i wanna sae.
thanks fer everything.
a friend you are.
a shoulder to cry on.
thanks.

dey'd won.

2008-05-23T07:36:00.005+08:00

i'd told you he'd win.
yes ah.
david cook won de american idol.
mom..
you see..
your son-in-law won it.
i told you.
okaylah.
noe what?
i cried okay seeing him won it.
seriously.
hehehhe..

and double yes okay!
manchester united won!!
woohoo!!
told you guys kan?
you lost de bet guys.
aku menang.
woohoo!
next time do listen to me okay guys.

confusion.confusion.confusion.

2008-05-22T02:02:00.003+08:00

will you love someone who loves you but u never did appreciate it?
or?
will you love someone who had wrong doings while being in relationship?
or?
will you love someone whos love life was brat by his ex?

ghurlfriends.
i need you.

holidays i really really hope u come by fast.
cz i really really need you fer now.

jobs?
can come by later not?
after my holidays?
pweety please?

yes.
i noe.
i'll be having ds 2nd interview in de morning at de japanese bank ds friday.
will be going alone ds time round.
been pampered by going wif people around.

how i wish azri can go back early and accompany me go fer de 2nd interview again.
and how i wish yan is not working on dat day,and can accompany me go fer my 2nd interview.
hahaha..!!
how i wish i can get ds job.
itz under finance department la seh.
pening dok.
u noe how i hate maths.
i'll cry.
like what izhar told me la kan jz now after noon.
letz jz wait up fer next 2 days call okay brother.
heheh..
u noe i noe.
bloody sucker blood.

so ya..
now waiting fer soccer match to start.
everyone dozed off.
kate jek nk temankn aku.
habok pon tkder.
thanks to azri fer sleeping early fer tmrw work.
thanks to yan fer sleeping wifout sending my mcdonalds supper.
thanks to my dad fer sleeping snoringly.
thanks to my brother fer asking me "kau nk tgk bola? bola aper? bola sepak la.. deng! "

* i really need to be myself. i need to be back alone. but how am i suppose to say dat? "

david cook is loved.

2008-05-19T21:41:00.001+08:00

david cook is loved.
=)

graduation day.

2008-05-14T11:24:00.002+08:00

it was fun! fun! fun!
met all ghurlfriends.
miss all de mak enons alright.
so mak enons!!
ive upload de pics here.
if u have more pics,do send it to my email addy alright.
so i can upload it fer u here..
take care lovez!
and do meet up often alright.my mak enons are missed by me.
=)

http://nanie88.multiply.com/photos/album/52/graduation_day.

birthday wishes 2nd part.

2008-04-28T11:11:00.002+08:00

haha.
i have an additional gelojoh.
nazurah!!
from msged thru hp..
she msged thru frenster..
and also blog tag la kan..
THANKS!!
much appreciated.
=)

hmm..
may be miting yan kering fer birthday.
tengok la mcm maner ehk bro..
klau gue enggak tired and sick.
whahha..

so..
thanks to:
.amalina
.rina
.adek gue
.naz... lagk..
heheh..

oh no!

2008-04-28T02:56:00.002+08:00

oh no!!

im 20.

talked to yan..
he was like..
err..
i guess..
his mind will be thinking..
"can u shut up?"

oit..
u'll regret one day okay if u did asked me to shut up.
sotong.
luckily you can tahan wif me fer 2 pathetic hours..
wif me like dozing off..
after medication and wif de itchy nose..
and even thou ure tired from work and complaining about ur itchy body..
ahhahah..
police!
police!
heeh..
i'll wonder if i can shout like dat if i see you la,yan..
hahaha..

soon..
i'll have another friend whom is a police..
chey..
chey..
chey..
izhar seh..
hahah!!
dat one i cannot imagine how he become a police..
police!
police!
but i'll guess he never layan and buat bodoh.
hahahah..

so ya..
mates are going Ns soon..
what about de other 3 guys ehk?
meng?
chin?
khai chuan?

graduation day.

2008-04-28T02:51:00.002+08:00

13 may is de date.
tueday is de day.
alah..
wanna go or not ehk?
fer de graduation thing?
and we have to go up on stage to collect our certs..
alah..
saper nk g layan?
i go dere makan2.
meet2 de people da okay la..
meet de people..
haiz..
ya..
meet de classmates..
de used-to-be cliques..
so how?
to go or not to go?
nanie?
izhar?
wanie?
scandals?
boyfriends?
ghurlfriends?
=)

birthday wishes.

2008-04-28T02:09:00.006+08:00

woah!!

received few messages..

i mean can say alot seh of messages..

jz wanna say thanks to:

.yaya[cuzin]

.ilah

.nanie.

.faisal

.hatd

.zule

.yana.

.nazurah

.sharon

.sofean

.izhar

fer de birthday wishes.

and faisal fer de birthday treat and birthday present.

and sofean fer accompanying me on de fone till 0000hours,28th april 2008,even thou i did dozed off seh and ure being too sleepy and tired from work.

and to my deary ghurlfrens, ilah and nanie..

hahah..

guess what?

dey msged me thru frenster..

msged me thru tagged..

msged me thru my number..

msged me thru msn..

and also multiply..

greedy ghurlfrens i have.

but i simply love you both.

thanks fer being in my frenship life.

and thanks fer being a part of my family.

love you both alright.

okay2..

below is one of de msg sent to me by siti noraini:

20 Reasons That Make YOu A Perfect Gurlfren:

1. You are funny

2. You Love to make people smile

3. You are easy-going

4. You are always there for me

5. You are full of commentos

6. You are honest

7. You are very straight forward

8. You are cheerful & bubbly

9. Your laugh makes me want to laugh with you

10. You are caring & loving

11. You are sweet

12. You always have the solution to every problems i encounter

13. You are fun to be with

14. You have the same interest as me

15. Your words are sharp *i loike*

16. You are independent

17. You motivate me when im about to give up something.

18. You point out my mistakes & weaknesses

19. You are stubborn

20. You are cool

Above all, you are simply my best gurlfren. Thanks for everything. Knowing you is my greatest pleasure.
"Happy Burfday Gurlfren"

and knowing my ghurlfrens and boyfrens are my greatest pleasure.

without dem,my life would be empty.

so,juz wanna say..

a big thanks to all of you fer de wishes.

losing a gd fren,de best of fren. =\

2008-04-27T14:02:00.004+08:00

ure a fren.
ure someone.
thru upz and downz ure always dere.
but i guess itz a no-no fer now.
you just have no right nimore in de list.
ure no longer a good fren.
ure no longer a best fren.
ure no longer a best blood.
or whatsoever.
ure jz a friend.
a casual friend indeed.
a casual friend whom i will jz say a small Hi and walk off.
ya.
im not de friend whom you used to noe.
whom you used to share everything.
or whom i used to share everything.

and guess what?
i can live without having you also..
i can live alright.

so..
then..
here's my farewell..
goodbye friend.
all de best fer ur future.
and all de best fer ur NS life.

de birthday thingy.

2008-04-26T03:48:00.002+08:00

okay2.
early planned we're having this birthday thingy fer me from fai.
toooot..
at last im de one who cancelled it.
taa-daa!!
chantek ah.
hehehe [ evilish laugh ]

okay..
this was nicely plan which was planned two weeks before.. [ pandai2 kire okay ]
den last week,
one of my mak nenek called up..
told us about de family barbeque thingy at cck.
and it was like..
"errr... okay.. insya allah, we dtg"..
den she sae..
"dtg la.. yaya bring adnan,nina bring amadil,abg hasyim bring kak syahirah,abg yuyu bring nana, nanie bawak nanie nyer...."
"huh? nanie bawak nanie nyer? mat maner ehk aku nk pinjam jap untok saturday nie? "
but then again..
after putting down de phone..
my mind goes..
"errr...ehhh"..
"oit...." [ then i start talking to myself again ]..
best tau talking to self..
crapz.

den i went to tell parents about it..
and mom was like..
"errr... ehk.. yer ker? betol ke drg jempot..."
jempot2 betol la mak aku ni..
da la aku ngh lapar at dat point of time..
dier cakap psal "jempot" plak tu..
and i goes..
"i..yer..lerrr...... but im not going..."
[ pause ]
[ a long major pause la okay ]
but i guess dat would be a full stop la cz she never reply me back.
whahahahheheh...

den jz now..
i made up my mind..
of cancelling my birthday thing..
aku tau yang cancel..
whahhehhe..
den i told fai..
" ala.. kau buat next week skali la.. da gaji aper.. lagik dapat duit ers.. $$$$.."
whahahhaehhehe..
"aku lagik suke..."
* hiak *
im not money face ehk..
stop it wif de remarks..
den after dat..
it cools down..

few hours later..

"kak.. monday kau tak kluar..?"
ler...
ni da knaper plak ngn adek aku..?
tak psal2 tanyer..
klau tanyer jek takper..
ni berkepit plak tu..
nyemak tol la kau tahu tak?
rimas u noe..

den he goes on and keep on asking..
"kau tak g maner2 ker lpas maghrib.."
"tak la.. agknyer la.. kau da kenaper mrepek??!"
guess what he did?
tersengih2..
mcm kerang busuk..

oit..
i had surprises okay..
yikes..
aku benci.

chocolates.

2008-04-24T13:38:00.004+08:00

sent me a chocolate cake with chocolate chips and chocolate frosting on it.
i'll be de happy chocolate angel, eating chocolates peacefully.
not bothering on others fer de chocolates im craving fer.
itz an heart ache not noeing dat chocolates is giving de peaceful moments when encountering difficulties.
chocolates never make you fat.
but it makes you happy which may turns you fat fer being too happy.
im soo in love wif chocolates la.
=)

* itz here..
itz coming..
=)

yus is giving de stoopid memories back.

2008-04-24T00:45:00.003+08:00

argh!
if i knew i'll never see de video or talk about those guys..
yus!!!
im gonna kill you fer sure seh..
u made me missing someone fer a stooopid reason.
* hiak *
geram la kan..

nanie and i were like chatting about dem..
we were like whos de original person fer it..
and went to watched de videos and nanie was searching fer de songs..
and i was like watching de videos..

only me and her and hym noes about it..
and maybe i regretted?
regretted of noeing hym before and left hym now..
hearing hym wif de struming of de guitars and lyrics of de songs..
noeing hys whereabouts even thou i never asked hym anyting about it..
noeing dat i lied to hym and hym jz becoz of noeing hym..
maybe i regretted.
and maybe not.
fer i had de chance of noeing hym fer who he is.
rather den not noeing hym fer who he is not.

simply miss hym rather den missing anyone else.
hah!

WHATEVER.

* an ex-boyfriend calls sometimes cool me down.
but hey!
what de hell am i thinking?
hes only asking fer my doings jek.
only hys frens were asking fer a get-back story.
nah..
im haing my own life now.
loving it also.
i guess.

sick

2008-04-21T16:29:00.002+08:00

i cant stand it anymore.
seriously.
i cant smell anyting fer now.
i'll vomit out everyting.
even thou ive eaten or not even touch any food yet.
why ehk?
and temperature is going up and low.
and running nose comes and goes.
de migraine?
dont ask about it.
it stays.
medicine wont work even thou itz taken 3 times a day.
seriously.

*soon to be enuf.
you'll noe itz here.

forbidden kingdom

2008-04-21T07:50:00.003+08:00

watching forbidden kingdom was full of laughters alright.
jackie chan wif jet li.
all time favourites.
should watched it.
love it.
=)

superhero movie was err..
oklah..
de same storyline as spiderman.
but ds was full of laughters or lame laughters?

and i regretted of watching over her dead body movie online HALF WAY.
you see..
now deres no more access to de webiste..
damn.
have to fork out fer dat movie..
eva longoria is loved.

next plan movie:
* prom night *
* de hottie and de nottie *
* over her dead body *
* college road trip *

itz coming..
coming..
oh no!
=)

20th to dem.

2008-04-19T13:11:00.002+08:00

Happy 20th Anwar!!!
and he'll be busybody counting to mine..
a primary school friend indeed.
sebok nyer orang.
=)

and guess what?
i forgot my childhood fren's 20th.
which was not supposed to happen seh.
i remembered his birthday every year.
and this..
i wasnt intentionally fergot his 20th seh..
Happy Belated 20th Sahibul.
=)

sick.

2008-04-19T13:05:00.003+08:00

being sick is driving me nuts and crazy.
been sick de whole day..
whole weeks..
almost come to months..

vomitted yesterday night.
having fever upz and downz really controls my patience.
and de migraine really strikes off..
gosh!

and luckily de running nose has stopped..
i wonder will it come back again..
im tired you noe..

migraine..
cold..
cough..
vomitting..
running nose..

damn.
i really cant stand it anymore.

fresh air is needed.
5 days sitting at home..
drives me nuts.

empress and de warriors. =)

2008-04-18T16:29:00.002+08:00

wheep!
staying at home is boring.
and so decided to catch a movie..
where?
internet lor.
hehe.
watched empress and de warriors.
cool and great movie.
de new "mulan"..
=)

jackpot fer movies.

2008-04-15T02:28:00.002+08:00

itz a jackpot!
went to cinemas fer movies..
yerp2..
movies..
out of boredom.
seriously.

met nanie some time last week or de week before..
watched shutter.
was fine.
credits fer de cinema.
first time fer me to amk hub cinema.
nice.

den de next few days..
went fer a movie Rule One.
was fine but seriously boring.
deres a malay guy in front of me saying..
"duduk lamer2.. tapi criter mrepek.. "
okay.
let me translate k..
"been sitting here fer so long,and dere it goes,a boring movie"..

next movie was street kings..
cool!!
love it.
should watch it..

den de last movie was untraceable.
nice one.
killing people..
gore..
should watched it too..

and dere it goes..
money spent fer movies out of boredom.
i cant stand it sitting at home fer long.
wished to be out.
but..
itz adult's fare.

does it make a difference?

2008-04-09T01:09:00.002+08:00

does it make a difference????
tell me la!!
told ya earlier.
and you agreed.
thanks fer understanding.

but now??
wheres de understanding??
u wanna a comment rite?
fine!

itz up to de individual.
itz up to dem to have it as low profile or whatever it is.
fuck!
u want me to what?
telling de whole world?
ferget it.

im not dat type of person whos gonna tell everyone about everything or anything.
you wanna differentiate me and others?
you wanna differentiate me and nanie??
look upon urself in de mirror la.
and ask urself whether is ds differentiating.

yes!
it is.
you have ur own opinion dat you never differentiate.
please ehk.
stop it.
open up ur minds and gather all ur brains.
ds i called DIFFERENTIATING.
and yes.
it is.

first you differentiate me wif ur ex.
and now ure differentiating me wif my own ghurlfren?
what de hell are you doing?

from nanie to her deary.

2008-04-07T12:56:00.000+08:00

from nanie..
to siti haslinda..
=)

http://nanieyananaqi.imeem.com/video/qbEfg5zT/nanie_anaqi_memories_shortfilm_video/

not in de mood.

2008-04-03T13:40:00.002+08:00

not in de mood to post any entry today.
only close ones noe.

ya..
same people and new comer who noes what im feeling rite now.

but den again.

ya.

have fun.

:)

* break down *

MAC cosmetic powder cum foundation nc40

2008-04-03T00:05:00.003+08:00

yerp2..

im selling MAC cosmetic powder cum foundation nc40 fer S$30/-.

Studio Fix is a powder and foundation in one that combines good coverage with ease of application. Designed to be used dry, the powder and pigments create a matte, velvety texture. It contains Silica, which helps to maintain a matte finish by absorbing oils on the skin, as well as Talc to provide a smoother, less reflective, matte finish. The talc has been milled to a microscopic size to provide a beautiful texture while allowing the skin to breathe. This product is long-wearing. It is available in a wide range of colours. It can be applied with a brush, sponge, or a powder puff.

feel free to get back to me if anyone's interested.

IST: chalet is cancelled okay?

2008-04-02T10:01:00.002+08:00

so...
now i pronounced dat our IST Chalet is CANCELLED.

no this..
no that..
fucked up i am..
u wanna de chalet,
PLAN it urself.

i shall and wont sae it.
like i said earlier,
you want it?
PLAN IT.

u dont expect us to plan everything and in de end,no one comes rite?
cz..
after considerations,
after asking about a small gathering sometime later..
a short message of cant make it really pulls us off..

which is de reason we're cancelling de chalet.
ya..
itz cancel okay?
satisfied?
i bet it'll be.

u want de chalet?
plan everything..
dont expect us to do everything fer u and in de end,
not even a ting happen.

[ below is editted by nanie; enjoy reading more people ]

ok, today is our results day and meeting the cliques up later in the evening at lido mc cafe.
but im so fucking disappointed.
first, before grad, people ask US to decide where, when & what time.
but wen we done with that, we let them noe, but their answer "i cnt make it" and no reply at all.
next time, dun be a sweet-talk mother fucker ok??

FCUK!!! whats wrong with you people.
fine, you think you wana be this way, ok lets do it. im very good at it.
we wanna have good times and be good and make that misunderstanding to an understanding, yet you people just let it go.

ok, just dun blame us for not letting you people noe abt the outing.
next time, for sure i wil count you people out coz its like wasting my time, effort & money, especially the upcoming chalet.
you people ask for it. then i guess this time you can have all the thinking towards me & whoever related to me. such a pain.

argh!!!!

ya.itz killing.

2008-03-30T13:59:00.002+08:00

body is shivering much.
from yesterday night.
and de head is seriously killing me.
seriously.

couldnt sleep de whole night.
about 4+am..
went to de kitchen to get some panadol and painkillers.
my head is spinning.
de migraine is from bad to worst.
i just cant figure out why people never understand.
dey just think itz a normal headache.

please la..
itz me who is de one who feels de worst of it.
but u just never understand.

a relative passed away cz she encountered de worst migraine.
and i just had de feeling dat im gonna live long wif ds migraine.

pray hard dat i can stay longer without no one noeing dat this migraine is killing me.

de werds which arent supposed 4 me.

2008-03-30T13:48:00.002+08:00

to live or not to live?

i seriously hating it much.
you noe..
i care and concern fer you people..
i took care of everyone..
and tell me something..
what do i get?

werds which are not supposed to be heard.
and you said dat?!
i never wanna be de cruel daughter or what ever.
but itz you who made me being like dis.

it you!
my own mother?
u regretted having me as a daughter rite?
fine.
i,myself,kept everything to self.
itz not only once.
many and few alot of times!!

i never wanna be rude to you!
and i never did rude to you!
but itz you!
you regretted huh..
fine.

i shall and will keep self quiet.
cz i,myself,regretted being here.

trip to changi general hospital.

2008-03-27T14:50:00.004+08:00

just got back from accompanying chemong!
all de best chemong!
hopefully dey'll call you soooooon.

chey!
someone is working sooooon.
unlike me still..
rotting at home.
duh!

met nanie at about 7.45am in yiochukang.
wah!
biiiig maaaajor difference huh..
ehheheh...

as usual..
talk2 non-stop..
early2 morning olreadi talked2 about this and dat..
this wan and dat wan..
dat person and ds person..
this is what i called..
"morning gossip-ness"...
whahahha!!
hehehhe..

reached changi general hospital about 9.15am.
had our morning drinks..
as usual..
nanie..
wif her toilet break..

went up about 9.45am..
she went fer interview and me waiting outside..

at last!
about an hour later,
after sitting on my hot sit..
she came wif gooood news.
she passed de interview..
and now waiting fer deir final call..
prayed dat u get de job hor..

den..
headed to eastmall or eastpoint?
watever shopping centre it it...
seriously.
boring!
errkkkhh..!!

had our breakfast cum lunch at banquet..
talked2..
chatted2..
and off!
we went to de toilet..
instead of entering de cubicle..
we had some snaps2..
as usual mah...

den...
off we went boarding de train when we suddenly felt de urge of going to de toilet again..
i mean..
wif entering de cubicle..
alighted at raffles place okay!
juz fer de toilet..

phew!
heehhee....
and off we went home sweet home..

wondering..
will dere be gathering?
i wonder still..

de link to de pics in multiply....:
http://nanie88.multiply.com/photos/album/48/trip_to_changi_general_hospital.

mom down wif foood poisoning.

2008-03-27T01:43:00.002+08:00

it hurts when seeing someone sick to de max!!

accompanied lil bro to see de doctor.
seriously.
slow to de max okay.
people in de clinic were coughing like mad.
lil bro was having fever.
and went fer mcdonald after dat fer he wanted to have lunch dere.

bought foooods..
and straight fer home.
ate.
and cooked macaroni fer people at home.
mum was sick.

den went out awhile to northpoint to grab some dinner..
hehhehe..
bought mom and rest carrot cake and chicken rice.
saw bibik wa at de fooood court.

and straight home to where my legs are leading to.
and..
de drama begins..

at around 1am..
mom was beginning to feel sick.
she went in and out of de toilet.
vomitting..
diarhoea..
it continued till maghrib de next day(260308).

accompanied her to see de doctor in de afternoon.
after dat..
headed to grandmother's place which was nearby.
cz she felt of vomitting again.

upon reaching..
wak yati was dere wif irdina too..
mom and i stayed dere till maghrib where de sickness came about from bad to worst.
den i also getting my headache after dat..
seriously.
de migraine hit me back.

seeing her in dat situation kill me.
seriously.
i cried.
wif no one noes about.
i just cant see her being sooooo seriously sick to de max..

after maghrib..
sent her to doctor nawaz..
doctor told dat she gt food poisoning..
haiz..
hurts me more..
haiya..

sent her back home.
but not back home..
to grandmother's home.
cz everyone will nt be at home in de morning.
am nt tooo sure if dad is working tmrw..
cz mom asked if he can take urgent leave.
she cannot even get out from de bed..

promised nanie to accompany her fer interview.
so..
be miting her in de morning..
oh gosh!
morning early-ness have not be waken up by me since graduated.
if only shes around wif us..

got to go!
later dat mak nenek pet pot pet pot #%$%^%&^%@#
if late.
hahahha!!

of coz mah.
shes de one who having de interview.
must give de best.
woohoo!!

all de best chemong!

izhar!!
u called.
and i noe ur little secret.
:)

result.

2008-03-24T19:46:00.001+08:00

oh no!!

results are coming up sooooon!!

2nd april is de date..

catch up soooon..

:)

silence is de best cure and medicine.

2008-03-24T15:49:00.002+08:00

i'll be S.I.L.E.N.C.E...
from now on..
or ferever...

itz de best cure of medicine fer myself..
rather den hurting self much..

im not here to be thinking only on self..
i do have de care and concern fer you people..
but itz you who misjudged self..

im not talking on anyone concern here...
im just.......
.....
.....
.....

haiz...
this is what i call..
"my misery life"...

somethings wrong?

2008-03-24T15:11:00.002+08:00

haiz..

was looking ferwerd fer pit..
i guess something's wrong somewhere2..
but im not too sure what really happen..
wondering what ehk?

my fault?
any other's fault?
we werent talking much or gathering much..
miscommunication?
haiz..
i donnoe..

20th.

2008-03-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

woohoo!!
someone is turning 20th old tower sooon!
hehhehe...

counting on de days of family gathering to pasir ris.
and im hoping dat it wont rain cats and dogs..
please..

and dont let my tent fly away.
and dont let anyone's tent collapsed.
like we used to encounter.
sorry ehk..
not mine..
it was grandmother's tent..
whahahhahah!!

luckily got us..
de super-heros-heroins..
saving her tent fer like half an hour?
whahahha!!

and our high hopes of staying up late fer sunrise was turned down..
it became sun-not-seen.
it was seriously a cold and shivering nite actually.
but i tink we were perspiring fer 'jaga' grandmother's tent.

and den again.
it was nice.
playing in de rain together2..
whahahah!!

looking ferwerd fer de gathering alright.

and i heard my ex-class will be having a chalet?
cool...
gathering..
and de 28th april tingy ting rite..
im trying to persuade mummy k..
and maybe it can happen la..
so gt a small gathering on de 26th instead of 28th which will be on monday seh..
i'll try to persuade mummy again..
hope it will come true.
if not,i'll juz meet you cliques.

wondering whats on 28th?
someone here is turning a 20th small kiddo..
whahahaha...!!

and im wondering if dat someone or i shud some guy out dere..
who intend to ferget dat 28th date..
who actually went around finding my mate,sabrina, fer de class list to check out dat 28th.

whoa!
i'll be hating you if you ferget.
and im sure..
preeety sure..
you will make it a purpose one of fergeting it.
and im gonna hate u seh.

migraine.

2008-03-14T14:05:00.002+08:00

itz returning back.
seriously.
i ought to hear advises from people.
and this is what i got.

migraine.

yerp2.
itz killing me.
maybe problems or stress are complied together.
which turns this.

yerp2.
resting enuf is what i nid.
cooling down self from thinking problems shud be put aside.
you noe i noe dat i may be thinking fer others and not fer myself.
and this is what i got.

migraine.

bye.